Bored!
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Hey baby,I'm so full now...ate a lot today...the students gave so much food & my prinicipal bought chicken...the auntie working at our place made us cocktail jelly..i feel so sleepy...anw i'm done with my work so tot of invading your space..i'll see ya later babe..
--insignificant lies--
2:50 pm
shoutbox away...!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
hey ppl..
i am currently sick.
yeah..go figure.
pali has left spore.
god im gonna miss tt girl.
what if one day she never comes back.
bummer sia.
but i guess by then i wld be rich enuff to take
holidays to the US. hehe.. yesh maybe..
but of course i must work hard for my studies.
i think i've been doing pretty ok.
and no sir..
this sickness is not bringing me down!!
im still gonna study.
yesh yesh yesh...
i love love.
;)
ps.but im gonna slp first. think maybe got to cancel on farah.
too tired.
pps.
kei and leila STOP mousey and tomato couting.
--insignificant lies--
12:09 pm
problematic shoutbox.
Saturday, August 21, 2004
there is some prob with shoutbox.
so till the prob is solved..
the shoutbox will temporarily be unavailable.
so if anything..leave me a comment instead :)
by the way..
i miss my girl online.
=)
--insignificant lies--
8:51 pm
the day
Friday, August 20, 2004
lemme tell u wat day this is..
this is the day.
yeah friday.
no biggie i guess.
just tt on days like this...
u lose faith.
ur already jaded on everything...
and the one thing u believed in..
lets you down.
perfect day.
but i understand.
i do.
but believe?
questionable.
perfect day.
--insignificant lies--
11:09 pm
purpose
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
im starting a purpose journal.
i doing watever it takes.
spritually.
cos i know tts the only thing holding me down.
i know i can do this.
i am intelligent.
and i should have no fears.
:D
i love you.
--insignificant lies--
12:35 am
burn
Sunday, August 15, 2004
poor girl kena exhaust pipe.
poor thing.
u take care k girl..
:)
im slacking at home whole of today.
got blasted headache.
must be cos i didnt get much slp
for the past few days.
later gonna start on bio hw.
but i think now i better go call
shao wei and ask him for hockey guys photos..
yesh yesh..good idea...
!!
haha..still havent finish.
when its just so simple.
oh well.
haha...
--insignificant lies--
4:54 pm
*to be with you forever...*
l love frasier!!
yesh i do.
i mean not the person frasier.
but the show frasier.
heheh...
eh die la..must do yrbook stuff.
shit..
dead.
oh wellz...
and i got no photo paper.
shit head.
darn it.
screw.
--insignificant lies--
10:40 am
double whammy exam..
Saturday, August 14, 2004
hello...
its really "early" now.
im taking a break.
too many things to study.
and i dont think i can make it.
oh well.
brother!
so after this the plan is tt i am gonna read tys.
no more reading the notes.
its really useless.
nothing is going in my head.
1.target= D
2.therefore, spot qns= hormones; placenta; graphs.
3.pray hard??
wish me luckz...
--insignificant lies--
2:22 am
members..
Thursday, August 12, 2004
welcome my new member.
heheh..
u know. ;)
--insignificant lies--
10:22 pm
succumbing to peer pressure.
haha..nah i didnt do anything tt bad.
just succumbed to the pressure of...
getting a shoutbox!!!
hahaha..
im a loser.
kei n leila busy getting shoutbox 2day.
so i got one just now.
think its pretty cool.
so ppl
leave me msgs.
got longer things to say..
leave me a comment!!!
anw been studying chem.
my head is spinning with food chem.
took maths test just now.
it was pretty ok.
cept i didnt know what is locus!
man..stupid or wat?
anyways peepz..
leave me msgs!!!
anyone at all..
esp the voyeurs...
--insignificant lies--
9:03 pm
essay outlines sucks.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
god..im really worried about chem n bio test this weekend.
what a goner.
and thank god mr yong didnt make a big fuss about my maths paper
which i missed on sat...
and
den! i still cant get over what you told me.
bloody hilarious.
this has got to be the best story yet.
dun worry. never divulge thy secrets.
later got spore idol.
hope to be entertained.
well ok..got to get back to my essay outlines.
wish me fun.
and yesh..my new aim is kei's blog.
;)
--insignificant lies--
7:54 pm
studying. fuck.
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
god. so sianz.
and its such a hot day.
im a prick.
i cant study when its hot.
so fussy arent i?
kinda sounds like darn excuses just cos i dun wanna study.
maybe they are.
oh well.
but this wkend got chem n bio test.
so screwed.
back to back.
how to make it sia??
gosh.
well..wish me luck.
--insignificant lies--
4:12 pm
dwindling apology.
Sunday, August 08, 2004
i've made a greivous mistake.
and i am really sorry.
im begging.
on my knees. forgive me.
--insignificant lies--
5:01 pm
breakdown
Saturday, August 07, 2004
i wanted to say a lot of things.
i even wrote a poem.
but i cant show it or say it to anyone.
i cannot express myself.
because of love.
--insignificant lies--
11:49 pm
bugging you
hey dolls...
im sian.
as usual.
spent whole day watching frasier.
and with my babe.
finally.
miss her so.
ate pastamania in the aftnn.
tt was nice.
i liked it.
anyways peeps..go see this...
http://img.tapuz.co.il/forums/8572800.swf
its really sweet n cute.
hehe..
ok got to go.
shall pout in missingness.
haha..no such word.
but who cares.
--insignificant lies--
11:11 pm
yoz
Friday, August 06, 2004
i duno why.
but i cant seem to bother about stupid blog.
supposed to be studying.
god help me with maths.
by the way..guess wats the date today.
yah.
im cool.
really.
i dunno la.
past regrets.
cannot help it.
i am over it.
but its the pain of regret tt bugs me.
i dont want tt to happen again.
thats why when i start being a bitch
i feel really really bad.
must really control myself.
love you.
a lot.
--insignificant lies--
10:52 pm
bulletin board
Monday, August 02, 2004
LAST THING(s) I...
Bought: chocolate
Read: the unknown errors of our lives by chitra banerjee
Watched on TV: everybody loves raymond
Watched on vcd : main hoon na
PREFER..
club/house party: house party
Cats/dogs: cats..they are so cute... ;)
pen/pencil: my purple a bit broken mechanical pencil
food/candy: food
cassette/cd: mp3!!!
coke/Pepsi: pepsi
Matches/lighter: matches..cos lighters hate me...cept the new lighters tt is easy to use..
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
kill: the a levels
THE...
Last movie you saw: connie and carla
Last song you heard: alicia keys- if i aint got you
Last thing you had to drink: water
last thing you eat: chocolate. kit kat chunky caramel.
last time you showered: this morning.
last time you smiled: a few mins ago.
last time time you laughed: somewhere in sch today. maybe when i was talking to farah.
last person you kissed: myself. i kissed my own hand.
Last thing you said: "siapa seh?" cos some idiot called n hanged up.
last person you talked to online: pali
last person you talked to on the phone/how long: (",)
DO YOU...
do drugs: vitamins.
drink: will never do.
sleep with stuffed animals: there are stuffed animals on my bed. but i dont hug them or anything.
believe there's life on other planet: of course. i love x files.
have any or lesbian friends: biggest DUH!!! gay friends also got.
consider yourself tolerant to others: not really. im a bitch.
believe in astrology: not supposed to.
believe in magic: magic is everywhere.
have any secrets: who doesnt?
have any pets: no. they all died.
Wear hats: trucker caps and visors.
have any piercing: ears? but they dont count.
have any tattoos: i wish i cld. so i resort to drawing henna-like tattoos on my fingers with my black pen..kinda like fake rings. haha...
hate yourself: im self loathing.
like your handwriting: yesh i do. the cursive one. the one u see in my diary. for my eyes only. not for ppl who cant read. hahaha...
believe in witches: charmed yes. piper..hot stuff...
believe in Satan: yesh i do. devils n all.
believe in ghosts: i wish i didnt. but i do.. :(
take walks in the rain: my fav activity. tts why i never carry umbrella.
sing in the shower: i sing everywhere..singing now.
love yourself: when i think i am beautiful.
miss someone: yeah of course so many.
bored now : not really. wat a shocker.
--insignificant lies--
8:17 pm
twisted n turned.
If I Ruled The World
by Nas
Nas
featuring Lauryn Hill
Intro: Nas (Lauryn Hill singing in the background)
Life..... I wonder....
Will it take me under.... I don't know
Verse One: Nas
Imagine smoking weed in the streets without cops harassin
Imagine going to court with no trial
Lifestyle cruising blue Bahama waters
No welfare supporters more conscious of the way we raise our daughters
Days are shorter nights are colder
Feeling like life is over, these snakes strike like a cobra
The world's hot my son got knocked evidently
It's elementary, they want us all gone eventually
Trooping out of state for a plate knowledge
if coke was cooked without the garbage we'd all have the top dollars
Imagine everybody flashin, fashion
Designer clothes, lacing your clique up with diamond Role's
Your people holdin dough, no parole
No rubbers, goin' raw imagine law with no undercovers
Just some thoughts for the mind
I take a glimpse into time
watch the blimp read "The World Is Mine"
Chorus: Lauryn Hill, Nas
If I ruled the world Imagine that
I'd free all my sons, I love em love em baby
Black diamonds and pearls Could it be, if you could
be mine, we'd both shine
If I ruled the world Still livin for today, in
these last days and times
Verse Two: Nas
Yo it'll be, paradise life relaxin black, latino and anglo-saxon
Armani exchange the reins
Cash, Lost Tribe of Shabazz, free at last
Brand new whips to crash then we laugh in the illa path
The Villa houses for the crew, how we do
Trees for breakfast, dime sexes and Benz stretches
So many years of depression make me vision
The better livin, type of place to raise kids in
Open they eyes to the lies history's told foul
But I'm as wise as the old owl, plus the Gold Child
Seeing things like I was controlling, clique rollin
Trickin six digits on kicks and still holdin
Trips to Paris, I civilized every savage
Gimme one shot I turn trife life to lavish
Political prisonner set free, stress free
No work release purple M3's and jet skis
Feel the wind breeze in West Indies
I make Coretta Scott-King mayor the cities and reverse feinds to Willies
It sounds foul but every girl I meet will go downtown
I'd open every cell in Attica send em to Africa
Chorus: Lauryn Hill, Nas
If I ruled the world Imagine that
I'd free all my sons, I love em love em baby
Black diamonds and pearls Could it be, if you could
be mine, we'd both shine
If I ruled the world Still livin for today, in
these last days and times
And then we'll walk right up to the sun
Hand in hand
We'll walk right up to the sun
We won't land
We'll walk right up to the sun
Hand in hand
We'll walk right up to the sun
We won't land
Verse Three: Nas
You'd love to hear the story how the thugs live in worry
Duck down in car seats, heat's mandatory
Runnin from Jake, gettin chased, hunger for papes
These are the breaks many mistakes go down out of state
Wait, I had to let it marinate we carry weight
Tryin to get laced, flip the ace stack the safe
Millionaire plan to keep the gat with the cocked hammer
Makin moves in Atlanta, back and forth scrambler
Cause you could have all the chips, be poor or rich
Still nobody want a nigga havin shit
If I ruled the world and everything in it, sky's the limit
I push a Q-45 Infinit
It wouldn't be no such thing as jealousies or B Felonies
Strictly living longevity to the destiny
I thought I'd never see but reality struck
Better find out before your time's out, what the fuck???
Chorus: Lauryn Hill, Nas
If I ruled the world Imagine that
I'd free all my sons, I love em em baby
Black diamonds and pearls Could it be, if you could
be mine, we'd both shine
If I ruled the world Still livin for today, in
these last days and times
If I ruled the world, if I ruled, if I ruled Imagine that
I'd free all my sons, if I ruled, if I ruled
I love em love em baby
Black diamonds and pearls, black dimaonds Could it be, if you could
black diamonds be mine, we'd both shine
If I ruled the world Still livin for today, in
these last days and times
If I ruled the world, if I ruled
if I ruled, I'd free all my sons
black diamonds, I love em love em baby
Black diamonds and pearls, if I ruled
If I ruled the world
If I ruled the world
I love em love em baby!!
this song is cool.
i like it.
i dunno why im blogging.
dun really have much to say.
tired really.
sick to the stomach of what is to come.
i fear the unknown.
i'm a control freak really.
if i can't control it i will go mad.
and i will feel like th earth is being swept from under my feet.
i ponder a lot about lots of things in my life.
how things really are.
you can't lie to yourself anymore.
the solitude that you seek for is like crushed by the fears by the tragedy of your life.
yes. your fucking life.
do something about it.
don't just sit there la.
fuck you.
but why can't i just get up and go?
what really is the matter?
is it the eerie way the coldness brushes up against my skin and rakes its fingers up and down my shoulder blades?
or the different ways i cry myself to sleep at night?
i realise now.
its just because im a self loathing bitch. with nothing left in me.
no faith and no hope.
and chastity? hahhaa... wat a farking joke.
cynicism becomes me eh?
iva says that in the end you make yourself what you want to be.
what do i want to be?
good question.
maybe i just want to be nothing.
a heap of nothingness. floating in mercury.
lifeless. dead.
so i must tell myself that i set my own destiny. my own path.
ohk.
right on.
my path is a crooked cobbled one. where the stones get stuck at the grooves of your shoe.
that's my path.
a crooked path for a crooked soul.
no pun intended.
--insignificant lies--
12:38 am
